Starting over

“Starting over” is an apt title for this post, as I haven’t posted anything here since February of 2011!  The year 2012 has been the most difficult year of my life.  I have turned – or returned – to art as my therapy of choice.  I am pretty much starting over with drawing, sketching, watercolor – these seem to be the only things I can concentrate on at the moment, although there are so many other things that I “should” be doing!  (Laundry, making dinner, finding room for all my “stuff” – and the list goes on!)

One project I have become involved in is the Sketchbook Project, through Art House Coop in Brooklyn, New York.  When you sign up to do a sketchbook, they send you a small 5×7″ book.  You pick a theme and then fill the book with whatever you choose to create.  You can also make a book out of your preferred paper, as long as it remains the prescribed size.  I have decided to make my own book out of hot pressed watercolor paper.  I chose this paper because it accepts watercolor well, and is smooth enough to write on.  The theme I chose is “Memoir,” which, of course, will be all about my son, Michael, who passed away in February at the age of 33.

I had dozens of ideas for the book, which was driving me crazy, and finally decided to do watercolor backgrounds on the pages, beginning with a bright, cheerful page and getting slightly darker as I work through them.  I also wanted to include bits of songs, because I love music, and so did Michael – although we had quite different tastes in music!  Here are the first two spreads.